Scan Results & Inspiration

I am glad to report that my PET scan and brain CT from this week showed good results.  All is stable.  I confess I was pretty worked up before getting the result because I had a terrible feeling there would be something.  I've been walking around with cautious joy for several months not really trusting that this would last.

I attended a support group last night that had a special guest who is a musician.  He's a self-taught Indian Flute player.  It's a beautiful instrument.  He plays to recorded music and tells wonderful stories that are inspiring.  It reminded me to appreciate that God is good, and to use the gifts within myself to express myself in a healing way.

Writing, as many of you know, is one way that I do that.  I've dabbled in painting a bit, but have not done it in almost a year.  My new goal is to get some canvas, get out my paints and brushes and start throwing out color.  I don't know what will come out, but I will do the same as I do with my writing, by not thinking about it.   I'll simply start with one color and see what it becomes.  My heart will dictate to my hand and whatever I'm feeling will automatically come out.

God gives us many gifts, but we limit ourselves by our fear.  I am going to work on letting my fear work for me instead of against me.  What harm could come of that?

Blessings to everyone.

“If you would prepare your heart, and stretch out your hands toward Him, if iniquity were in your hand, and you put it far away, and would not let wickedness dwell in your tents; then surely you could lift up your face without spot; yes, you could be steadfast, and not fear; because you would forget your misery, and remember it as waters that have passed away, and your life would be brighter than noonday.  Though you were dark, you would be like the morning.  And you would be secure, because there is hope”  (Job 11:13-18 NKJV).